A fresh start

A few things have come to an end for me lately.

I just recently finished a masters program. My first anniversary with my husband is tomorrow, marking the end of the newlywed phase. I finished a rewatch of Parks and RecreationSchitt’s Creek, and a few other shows.

So what now?

It’s hard to hit a natural stopping point, only to look back and wonder “what now?” My life is currently business as usual (despite the ongoing pandemic). I have a 9-5 job, I freelance here and there, I make three meals a day, I read when I’m bored, I watch too much TV. Nothing is really remarkable right now. Even worse, I don’t seem to have a solid goal I’m working toward.

The masters program I went through was perfect. I had a tangible goal to work toward, which kept me motivated. I had a purpose. But now that that’s over, it seems like I don’t have anything else to work toward. I have a hobbies I’d like to pursue, but it’s hard to figure out where to start or what to focus on. The list is a bit too long to seem manageable, and the idea of prioritizing these tasks is daunting. How am I supposed to decide what’s most important?

I guess there’s only one thing to do: write them all down, and then walk away.

I do this often when tackling difficult writing assignments. I often have a massive amount of information to cram into the piece, and no idea how to structure it into something meaningful. So I write it all down, and I close my computer. I have some wine, I watch some TV, I sleep. By the next day, I can look at things with fresh eyes, and find a story between the lines of information.

That’s what I’m going to do now. I’m going to take a moment, write down the big goals I have, and then walk away from them. Maybe in the morning, I’ll have a better idea of where I want to go from here, and how I want to write my own story.

The Big Ones

  • A full apartment refresh.

    This includes a good deep clean, clearing out the crap we don’t need, and making some improvements to the apartment

  • A new creative project.

    I’ve been thinking of taking a stab at fiction writing, or possibly diving into producing a podcast

  • Refocusing my career.

    I want to be sure I’m really doing what I want to be doing, and I want to develop the skills I need to pursue those desires

So those are the big bears. I have smaller aspirations, many of which fall under one of those larger buckets. Tomorrow I’ll take a stab at ranking these goals in terms of what I want to prioritize now, and then later down the line I’ll make a dedicated post for each Big One, breaking it down into shorter, more tangible tasks that need to be done to reach the finish line.

For now, I’m going to walk away.

A corner of my life 5/16/2020